Well, it's that time of the year again: Crowdsource grading, the moment where you have the opportunity to evaluate yourself and be evaluated as a learner. During this time lapse, we are given the task to grade ourselves, to receive feedback and then reflect, to really ask the question: "What number best represents me?" Believe me, I know very well the "don't let a number define you" statement; however, at the end of the day that pretty much sums it up. Through different aspects we are told to give ourselves a grade, to measure our performance on a scale from 1-7 and then justify why. Something that is truly hard to accomplish in my perspective.
I consider myself someone critical, yet confident in my own way. These properties of my personality face me with a crossroads, not allowing me to objectively give myself the best numerical representation of my interim accomplishments. This conflict rises from the issue of the point of view, and how different eyes are prone to witness different realities. The way I see something may not be equal to the way someone else perceives it, which is why I have learnt to put on my analytical goggles on when giving myself a grade.
When it comes to self-evaluation we are faced with a conflict of interest. It happens to be in our best advantage to get good grades, which is why it comes as a challenge to be tough on one-self. Due to this, every time I have to measure myself as a learner, I apply self evaluation as if it were someone else. I look at the facts, the evidence, try to get a more logical angle to avoid the self subjectiveness; and for now, it seems to be working.
So, in the end, I decided to challenge myself. There is still much room for improvement, something that I am aware of. I do believe that the grades I received were the grades that I deserved; yet, I am not going to lay back and relax. I trust that interim reports serve as a wake up call to many, and in my case, the message has been heard. These reports have served as a true eye opener, specially since in life we are not always going to be given the privilege of receiving such direct feedback. Due to this, it is highly important to begin building up this questioning voice inside our heads that noticed mistakes before it is too late to fix them.
I have already created an action plan and set up to-do lists to begin my productiveness. I have began to read a documentary book and keep track of it via google docs, not to mention the book I am reading on my free time: "Elizabeth is missing". I have set up reminders and kept track of my errands on ical, I can say with absolute confidence that for the rest of tenth grade, I am going to be as proactive as I can!
“The earth has music for those who listen.”